Thursday, December 9, 2010

Meg meets Nana

Our family travelled to Anchorage, Alaska last week for my Aunt's memorial service. Maren met my mom for the first time. She loved Nana! Nana loved her! Maren also experienced snow for the first time. I think she enjoyed it! When the wind met her face she got an excited look and she smiled. It's so good to have our island darling home to cozy up with for the winter.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Bye Bye Bitter Sweet First Year

Marking Maren's first birthday is bitter sweet. It's sweet because she is home and we are celebrating this important milestone TOGETHER. And, look at her! Isn't she precious? What's not to love? She is thriving, changing, learning, and growing She brings so much life and joy into our home.

O.k., it's a little bitter because I'm not quite ready for her to be one! But ready or not birthday number 1 has come. We've only been together 5 months. Time is going a little too quickly. It still feels like we're trying to catch up. And, it's already time to say good-bye to formula (well maybe this is partly sweet for our budget) and hello to whole milk and an era of bottles and infancy is already beginning to come to a close. She is standing up now and I know walking independently is just around the corner. I love the baby days and I am grasping to hold on to them.

I cannot help but think of Maren's birth mom. This is also bitter. I am sure that she too is marking this important milestone. I am sure she is still mending from this huge tear in her heart.

I guess it's good that the bitterness of life is mixed with sweetness. It makes everything more palatable. And, it helps us look forward to our real home with our Father who will wipe every tear from our eyes.

Happy 1st Birthday, Dear Maren!

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Recovering From The Toll of the Wait

I was listening to a webinar by Karyn Purvis in preparation as we waited to bring Meg home. The good doctor was encouraging adoptive parents to take care of themselves so that we can in turn take good care of our children. She encouraged drinking enough water, taking a multi-vitamin, getting daily exercise, and dealing with the emotional baggage of your life through journaling. As she was elaborating on the stress of adopting she mentioned in passing the stress of the adoption process and specifically noted how grueling and taxing the wait can be. When she mentioned that I began to cry and I was thankful that she had included this little sentence in her presentation because it affirmed and gave credibility to the pain that I was experiencing as we were 1/2 world apart from our daughter.

That crazy wait wears on you! And, it takes time to recover from the wait after it's all over. And, the recovery is taking place as your adjusting to the new little bundle in the family and you're going through jet lag.

I feel like I am coming out of the fog of the wait! It feels good. It was worth it. And, it was hard. And, now I better get a glass of water, take my vitamins, and go for a jog.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

I Know You Better Now

Just looked through some of my photos that we received while we were waiting to meet Meg. I haven't done that for a while because I've been having too much fun with the real girl live! Looking at those pictures now brings different feelings. Ah, it's so good! I love her personality and I love that looking back I can see what was there all along but I couldn't recognize because I didn't know her yet. I know you better now, Meg!

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Rejoice with Me

"Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Does he not leave the ninety-nine and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, "Rejoice with me!" Luke 15:3-7

It is so hard to find words adequate to express our joy. As I reflect on our Maren's home-coming this phrase "rejoice with me" captures what is in my heart. Our daughter is HOME! The lost is found. Rejoice with me.

Alex and I have prayed since 2003 that the Lord would set an orphan into our family. Many mornings at breakfast I would sit down with our children and we would ask the Lord to bring us a baby who needed our family. We would say, "we are available please make a way".

However, the whole idea of adopting seemed overwhelming. We wanted to adopt so much but it would take a miracle for us to be able to do it.

Finding His Hands Taiwan was a miracle. The fact that Maren was not aborted was miraculous. Financing our adoption was another series of miracles. Being matched with a birth mom who was such a perfect complement to our family was another miracle. All of these miracles has given us great hope that God is at work. We pray that we will all be in heaven together one day. We are so happy that God has provided miracle after miracle.

It is with this joy that we wish to invite you to rejoice with us on November 14, 2010. You are invited to Maren's first birthday party. We are holding an open house in Maren's honor at in our home on Sunday, November 14th from 4-7 p.m.

In lieu of gifts, we will have a basket available for anyone wishing to make a tax deductible donation of any amount to His Hands Taiwan, the orphanage where Maren received her care for the first seven months of her life.

We look forward to celebrating with you!

Alex and Beth

For friends at a distance who would want to bless Maren's orphanage the U.S. address is:

His Hands Taiwan
P.O. Box 404
Leakey, Texas 78873

You can write in honor of Maren Brodine on the memo line.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Love Her All the Time

Maren is 11 months old today! We must be settling into a routine because I didn't even think about it being a mile marker until we were at the YMCA this morning. We still rejoice in finally having her HOME! These kinds of days were always so hard when she was on the other side of the sea. We never wanted to miss out.

I decided to have a little photo shoot with her this morning. I probably should've waited because it was nearly her nap time and she was not a happy camper. She needed to sleep. But some of her "sad" pictures were so adorable I had to share them. We love her all the time, happy or sad!

She dislikes hats, bows, or anything on her head. She is happiest when she is exploring and touching. In fact, it is hard to get her to look at the camera because she is usually so busy and so focused on what she is doing.

She loves Sam. They are buddies! He can't wait for her to walk and follow him around. (He may change his mind about that.)

She is beginning to laugh whenever we laugh at something. She wants to be a part of the group. It is super super cute! This baby has captured our hearts. Love you, Marenbella!

Saturday, October 9, 2010

We Go Together

Maren has been home for a little over 3 months. People often ask us how bonding is going. Some people offer commentary saying, "she looks like she has bonded now". This is our first adoption. We are newbies. We feel "bonding" is going very well. And, we believe bonding is not a one time thing.

Bonding is not something that can be calculated or comes to a definitive end. It is an ongoing process that takes time. It is about relationship and growing trust and love. We loved Maren so much before we ever met her. And we are more attached to her
today than ever. Tomorrow I believe we will know her a little better and our connection will be even stronger.

We have been very purposeful, intentional, and careful for the past 3 months with Maren for her long term good. This has not been easy. Our actions have only been with her best interest in mind. She needs us in a very special way. She needs to learn who her family is first. She needs to know that we are her primary caregivers and nurturers. We are different than other people.

I have learned a lot through my research on adoption and bonding. You can see a few of my favorite books if you click here. Also, I have stumbled onto an amazing website by a specialist in child psychology. I would also like to link that here. These resources are especially for adoptive families. However, I think there is a lot of wisdom here for any parent or interested person.

Our social worker recommended at our first home visit in August that no one outside of our family would hold Maren for 6 months. We have chosen to follow her professional counsel. Others who adopt make different choices and that is o.k. Each family has to do what they believe is best for their child.

When we made this decision it was not about other people and what they would think and how they would react. We are aware that some people have felt excluded. People are dying to hold this precious little bundle. I can't blame them! She's wonderful! We empathize with others and have not wished to hurt them. However, if we don't give Maren what we believe she needs, who will? It is not easy to ask friends to wait. But six months is not long in the scheme of Maren' life.

Maren and I are always together. This is one of my greatest joys. We are making up for the time that we were half a world apart. She is learning that Alex and I are here for her. We want to meet her needs. I have taken full responsibility for all of her feedings because I want her to know I am her mommy. I nursed our first 4 children and I want to give her the same priority, love, and commitment as her brothers and sisters.

Our house is not as clean as I would like. I am more tired than I had been before she came home. Alex and I are rarely alone. But, I don't have an ounce or a minute of regret. I am trying to fully soak in and enjoy this time which goes all too quickly. I can't believe we are so close to her first birthday!

Adoption is a passion of mine. Alex and I are praying and seeking the Lord about the future of our family. I would love to do this again some day.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Letting My Perfectionism Go

I cannot believe how little I have blogged here since arriving in Taiwan! I had been planning to write every day on our trip. I thought I was off with a bang when I posted
"Camp Wannameechameg" from our Omaha hotel room the night before our departure. But once Maren was in my arms I found it very challenging to type one-handed. Blogging has had to wait.

I thought when I got home I would go back and catch up the blog. I wanted it to be chronological so I have been waiting to post anything current until I had caught up. Well, Maren has been home from Taiwan for over 3 months now and I am not caught up and catching up doesn't seem to be easy. She was sleeping when I started this post and now she is wide awake in all her cuteness and charm kicking and cooing and giggling as I type. So much for my plans....Maren is better.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

♥ His Hands Taiwan

Love these ladies!

Love this ministry!

Love the nannies!

Love the babies!

Love the mommies!

Love the Lord for his leading!

Please click here and learn more about His Hands Taiwan! Pray for them, love them, bless them! Be a partner in what God is doing.

I am jumping a little ahead. This photo was taken at our last meal with Holly and Trena. All I can say is I didn't want it to end. We were just starting to scratch the surface of getting to know them and their beautiful families. We will never forget them. We ♥ them.

United at Last!

The end of our adoption story was a roller coaster. On Memorial Day weekend we received an email from His Hands Taiwan. They had called the clerk who had been assigned to our case to check on the status of our adoption. They did not receive good news. The clerk informed them that the home-study which had been completed on Maren's mother back on March 17 was invalid. The clerk said it would have to be "re-done". In addition to this Holly and Trena were having trouble locating Maren's mom. She thought she was finished with her responsibilities. Her phone number had changed and all of the phone numbers that they had for her were not working. In addition to that we learned that Maren was from Ping Dong county. Ping Dong has many social challenges. There is a lot of abuse there. It is difficult to rush anything through the social services office. It looked as though our adoption would not be completed for at least a few more months at that point.

God gave us a miracle! You can read that story if you click here and scroll down to June 2.

I share this background because the height of our joy came after a very dark low. Meeting Maren in June was a miracle that we will treasure forever!

We met Maren at the House of Hope. We wanted to come into her familiar surroundings, see what her environment was like, and ease into our hello. It was an amazing moment. It was just like I dreamed it would be. I imagined the moment over and over before it actually arrived. I envisioned that she would be happy and playing and I would sit down beside her with my camera in hand and soak her in. I was so happy to be there and to touch her.

Meeting Meg

One of Our Happiest Mornings On Earth

Alex and I love new places! We were excited from the beginning of this adoption that we would be traveling to Asia for the first time. When we were talking and praying about adopting and we learned about Taiwan Alex said, "Taiwan, yes, Taiwan, I like it. It seems right." It did not disappoint. It was right.

I woke up with a deep joy in my heart on June 19th. It was surreal. I did my best to soak in all the sights, smells, sounds, emotions. I am smiling just thinking about it.

The Novetel was the name of our hotel. The breakfast buffet was truly international. There were meats, cheeses, breads, croissants, Japanese noodles, English breakfast beans, Congee (an Asian rice porridge), eggs, bacon, juice, coffee. You name it. They had it.

People were very friendly and were interested in us. We were congratulated several times as we shared our reason for travel. It was delightful in every way.

After breakfast we packed up our things to catch the 8:00 a.m. shuttle to the High Speed Rail. We got to the lobby at 8:00 and asked the front desk where we should catch the shuttle. As we were talking the shuttle drove away. For a brief moment my heart sank. I thought our whole day might have just changed.


My knight in shining armor, Alex, hailed a taxi and we were on our way on schedule smiling from ear to ear.

We made it to the train station. Purchasing the tickets was easy. We were set.

By car I believe it would've taken us 6 hours to get from Taipei (in the north) to Kaohsiung City (in the South). But, the high speed train would get us there in about an hour and a half. Amazing!

The train was very clean and smooth.
We enjoyed the trek immensely. The landscape was interesting and beautiful.

We didn't really feel nervous. We were just excited!

We arrived at the Kaohsiung Train station at 10:06 a.m. Holly and Trena were waiting on us!

We loaded up our suitcases and were off to meet Meg!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

The Night Before Maren

We arrived in Taiwan on Friday night June 18. We moved through customs with ease and hopped a shuttle to our hotel. What a night! What a feeling!

I had been nervous about flying to Taiwan but it was an amazing trip. After arriving in the country and being so close to our baby girl I was over the moon with excitement and very relieved that the wait really was almost over.

Alex and I watched the U.S. vs. Slovenia game in our hotel room. We were grateful for the time to unwind, enjoy some soccer, and settle in.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

A Tribute to Maren's Aunties

It is clear to us that Maren received great care at the House of Hope and she was LOVED! It was very clean and small (meaning a great ratio) and most of all the babies are happy. They make good eye contact and have no trouble snuggling in to all the best places. All of these wonderful things didn't just happen. They are because of the hard work, selflessness, and love of some very special ladies.

Maren was a "high maintenance" newborn. I think she had cholic. She cried often. And, this girl has got lungs! Wow! Her aunties said they could hear her cry outside if she really got going. And, after only a week with her, I'm a believer. She is easy going most of the time but she does have a temper and she lets you know when she needs something.

Three cheers to Mary Joy, Glenda, Xiao Mei, and Jenna for giving Meg a wonderful beginning. She is adjusting well. And, we know you had a HUGE part in this. Thank you so much for sleepless nights, unconditional love, and persevering in your job. I know it must be very painful to give yourself to these babies and then let them go to the other side of the world. We will make sure Maren knows who you are as she grows! We love you and pray that God will bless you 1000x! We are praying for you. Thank you for loving and letting go. May the Lord be your strength always.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

On Our Way!

Psalm 121
1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;

4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;

6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;

8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

The Lord answered prayer! Thank you so much for praying for us and sharing this journey. We are back home now. God granted us safe travel to Taiwan and we are so thankful.

We left Holdrege, Nebraska on Wednesday night. We traveled to Omaha and stayed in a hotel near the airport so that we could leave early on Thursday morning. It was a beautiful day to travel. The flights to Denver and L.A. were smooth and seemed short knowing that a 14 hourish flight was coming.

The Lord gave us a special gift in a layover in L.A. A close friend, Rebecca, met us at the airport and took us to a local Starbucks. We enjoyed walking and talking. And, she sent us off with a blessing and a few gifts. It really was the Lord smiling on our trip and reassuring me that He was with me on the trip. He provided peace all along the way.

EVA Air carried us to Taiwan. Our 777 was comfortable and the crew was wonderful. They even gave us slippers for the journey. About hour 10 of the flight we wished we were there but really the flight went as well as it could have gone.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Camp Wannameechameg

Our family of 6 soon to be 7!

When we walked in the door at Dad and Mom Brodine's tonight we were greeted by Mom and Liz. "Welcome to Camp Wannameechameg!". With 7 kids all under the same roof and a dog it is like a camp. And, oh yes there will be "mess hall duty", "latrine duty", "team competitions", and I think I heard a rumor about prizes.

I just have to say the Brodines are creative! Reading that sign and learning of their enthusiasm to help us in accomplishing this life dream delighted me. It is hard to put into words. Thank you Dad, Mom, Gary, and Liz! We are praying for your 10 days! And, we hope you get a nice break when camp is over.

Please pray for the kids as we are away.

Adalynne is so sweet and tender. She was having a hard time. She cried some. It is a long time and we will be far away. But, she knows it is worth it. Please pray that God will use this to teach her already to depend on Him. Pray that she will have peace and joy. Pray that she will be a help and have a wonderful time.

Elie was bubbling over with joy. In the car she squealed a loud happy squeal and said, "I am soooooooo happy because Maren is coming home!". She already has songs and books ready to go.

Joe was smiley and chasing his cousins around. He too is excited for Meg to come home. And, he enjoys the moment. Today he is delighting in chasing Brooklyn, Amorie, and Juliette and making them laugh.

Sam is ready to be the "big brother" for the 1st time. He is soooooooo glad that Maren is littler than him. And, he welcomed today with open arms.

Thanks so much for sharing our journey with us. God is helping us!

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

7 Months Old and Coming Home!

Praise God! Praise God! Praise God! Not too long ago I thought Maren wouldn't be joining our family until August or September. We had a set back but God worked a miracle and surprised us! I have been waiting to use this little blog title for a long time. I am so thankful to our Lord that the day is almost here!!!!!!

7 months and now the completion of our wait. I feel like a 10,000 lb. weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. *Insert Happy Dance here!

We will begin our journey to Meg on Thursday morning at 10:30 a.m. U.S. central time. We will be traveling Omaha, Denver, L.A., Taipei. We will arrive in Taiwan on Friday morning at 11 a.m. U.S. central time. We will stay in a hotel for about 12 hours to rest up. Then take the high speed train to meet our daughter. We will be united with her sometime around 11 p.m. U.S. central time on Friday night (which is Saturday morning in Taiwan). Please cover our trip in prayer. And, please pray for our 4 children who will be staying with G'ma and G'pa Brodine. I know they are going to have fun!

Thank you to all of you sharing this journey with us! You are a blessing. We plan to update our blog and share some updates on facebook as it is possible. However, meeting Meg is priority #1! And, I want to be fully there with her and soak every minute of this amazing story in!

Friday, June 11, 2010

Plans Pending, Please Pray

The hardest part of adopting Maren for me is anticipating and making the 12+ hour flight to go and get her. Flying has never been something that I enjoy doing. I don't like being that high off the ground. If God brings it to mind please pray for me. Pray that God will watch over us and bring us safely home to the 4 kiddos we will leave behind as we embark on this incredible journey to baby #5! Pray that I will abide in the peace that the Lord gives and enjoy every part of adopting Meg. I want to soak all of this in! This is a life dream and I know it is soooooo worth it. I will not let fear rob me of this joy. God has been so good. He has been leading us all along the way. I know that He will not stop now. I know that He will be with us on that flight and His angels will surround our plane.

Our plans are pending. I don't like uncertainty. I like concrete plans. In adoption there is so much waiting and unknown. Just a little longer and we will be out of the "clouds". God in His goodness has been stretching us throughout this entire process to trust Him. We don't know what He knows or see what He sees. Who knows what He is working out? His ways are higher and His plan is beautiful. He is trustworthy!

We need an appointment with the American Institute in Taiwan and then we can book flights and travel. The American Institute in Taiwan will issue the visa that Maren needs to come home with us. It is a very important step. Please pray that God will give us an appointment very soon. And, even more importantly pray that God will bless His Hands Taiwan in their relationship with AIT and the people who work there. This is kingdom building work! Your prayers will make a difference for the good of children needing a way home to their families in the future.

Because it is summer plane tickets are hard to come by and very expensive. Please pray that when we receive our AIT appointment 2 tickets will open up at a great price. Also pray that we will receive a good route. God provides!

We will be meeting Maren's mother while we are in Taiwan. This will be one of the most significant aspects of our trip. Please pray with us that God will touch her life. We want our time with her to be marked by love. We want her to know the presence and love of Jesus. And, we want her to know how much we care about her. Would you please believe with us that God will meet us in a special way? God has given us a special love for this precious young woman. We long for Him to reveal Himself to her.

Thank you all so much for your notes of encouragement, prayers, and support! We all need each other and we appreciate you. We'll keep you posted.

I Peter 3:6, "like Sarah, who obeyed Abraham and called him her master. You are her daughters if you do what is right and do not give way to fear."

Joshua 1:9, "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

Thursday, June 3, 2010

He Has Done Great Things For Us!

On May 26 we received an email from His Hands Taiwan. It was not the news we had been hoping for. Our court date was February 24. Our home-studies were completed on March 17. Holly and Trena called the clerk in charge of our case to see how things were coming. When they called they were told that our birth mother's home-study was invalid. It would have to be re-done. It had been completed in the House of Hope and the clerk said that they would not accept it.

On top of this Holly and Trena were having difficulty reaching Maren's mother. They had 4 phone numbers for her. All of them did not work. Holly and Trena asked us to pray with them. They needed to find Maren's mom ASAP so they could take her to the social services office for an interview so the home-study could be re-written.

When we learned all of this I was very sad. I had been thinking that we would get word that Maren belonged to us any day. Instead we learned it would not be any day and it was likely to be a few more months.

We prayed earnestly over the Memorial Day weekend that the Lord would lead Trena and Holly as they would search on Tuesday. Our God heard and he answered in a mighty way. You can read that story if you click here. It is well worth the read!

At the end of Holly and Trena's miraculous day there was another miracle. Our first decree came in the mail! We don't know why this change occurred. It had to be our mighty God working for Maren! Praise Him! Praise Him! Praise Him! He has done great things for us and we are filled with praise.

Exciting update:

Today is Tuesday, June 8, 2010. We have just learned that Maren is officially Maren Xi En Brodine! That's right, we got our 2nd decree. We will be traveling soon! We'll keep you posted. Please pray for us. We are looking into travel plans. We need the Lord's leading!

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Waiting In Hope

Psalm 33:18-22, "But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear Him, on those whose hope is in His unfailing love, to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine. We wait in hope for the Lord; he is our help and shield. In Him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in His holy name. May your unfailing love rest upon us, O Lord, even as we put our hope in you."

Smitten By Our Sweet Girl

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

God Sees Me

Genesis 16:13 " So she called the name of the Lord who spoke to her, 'You are a God of seeing,' for she said, 'Truly here I have seen Him who looks after me.' "

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Saturday, May 29, 2010


God Knows

Psalm 139

Search Me, O God, and Know My Heart
To the choirmaster. A Psalm of David.

139:1 O Lord, you have searched me and known me!
2 You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
you discern my thoughts from afar.
3 You search out my path and my lying down
and are acquainted with all my ways.
4 Even before a word is on my tongue,
behold, O Lord, you know it altogether.
5 You hem me in, behind and before,
and lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
it is high; I cannot attain it.

7 Where shall I go from your Spirit?
Or where shall I flee from your presence?
8 If I ascend to heaven, you are there!
If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!
9 If I take the wings of the morning
and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
10 even there your hand shall lead me,
and your right hand shall hold me.
11 If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me,
and the light about me be night,”
12 even the darkness is not dark to you;
the night is bright as the day,
for darkness is as light with you.

13 For you formed my inward parts;
you knitted me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. [1]
Wonderful are your works;
my soul knows it very well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you,
when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
in your book were written, every one of them,
the days that were formed for me,
when as yet there was none of them.

17 How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
18 If I would count them, they are more than the sand.
I awake, and I am still with you.

19 Oh that you would slay the wicked, O God!
O men of blood, depart from me!
20 They speak against you with malicious intent;
your enemies take your name in vain! [2]
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O Lord?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against you?
22 I hate them with complete hatred;
I count them my enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts! [3]
24 And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting! [4]

God knows! It is mind boggling to try and grasp what He knows. He knows me. He knows Alex. He knows Ada, Joe, Elie, and Sam. He knows our family history and what makes us tick. He knows Maren. He knows her mom and her dad. He knows her history and what makes her tick. He is close to us here in Nebraska. He is just as close to Maren in Taiwan. It is too wonderful to understand! There is no where we can go that He is not already there. God knows. Oh for grace to trust Him more! Help us, Lord.

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Wait for It

Habakkuk 2:3, "For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay."

Thanks, Angie, for sending this verse. It does seem slow. I am praying for humility, trust, and grace.

Monday, May 24, 2010

She's a His Hands Baby and We're Glad

We love His Hands Taiwan! Check out their new website. They have a place on the website for prayer requests, updates, and even a wish list.

Because He is My Refuge

Last week I had a nagging question that would not leave me alone. If God is God and He is in charge and He is going to bring Maren home when He says it is time on His time table then why keep praying? I have prayed and prayed and prayed. I brought my complaints to the Lord. Finally, I listened.

Psalm 62:8, "Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us."

Because He is my refuge. Because He is with me and for me in this adoption. Because this life is about my relationship with Him and not what I can get from Him. Because He carried my sorrows and grief on the cross. Because He wants me to share with Him and He wants to share with me.

Cowardly, wayward, and weak
I change with the changing sky.
Today so eager and strong
Tomorrow not caring to try.
But He never gives in,
And we two shall win,
Jesus and I. -Anonymous