Feel, Do, Think, Faith

I travelled in a music group in college named One Accord. I was a vocalist along with Kristina Fulks (now Sieh) and Heidi Heaston (now Hewuse) and Ian Lindsay. At one point in our travels we got on a people analysis kick: personality tests, birth order, spiritual giftings, and just in general how people are wired up. I think being stuck in a van with 9 unique individuals we were looking for answers and survival techniques. Those were the days! Anyway, one of our conversations revolved around 3 words Do, Think, Feel. People do all of these but not in the same order. For example, I am a feel, do, think.

(FEEL) I have wanted to adopt since 1996. Hearing the stories of abandoned little girls in China went deep into my heart. I have cried over orphans for years. I have begged the Lord to place an orphan into our family. I have been inspired by others who have adopted and watched them with great joy in my heart, longing for my day to come.

(DO) This past fall we believed that God was showing us that it was "time" to pursue adoption. We have done everything we can at this point to be ready. We have done a home-study, we have been and are reading about adoption, internet research, talked to other adoptive families, we are praying, we have been fingerprinted twice, filed the I-600 A, learning a little about Taiwan's people and culture. There is lots of doing here.

Just in the last month with our adoption getting closer by the day, THINK, is coming on strong. My mind is full of thoughts like: Wow! This is real. Can I do this? Who is she going to be? Will she bond to us? Can we afford this? The flight to Taiwan is really long and I don't like to fly. I have never adopted before, this is going to be new and different.

Alex, my husband, is a THINK, FEEL, DO by the way. Thank the Lord! I know He put us together perfectly. We really compliment each other in a true way. I am feeling when Alex is thinking. Alex is convinced and confident when I am finally getting around to thinking. I think he continues to be shocked that thinking comes on the scene so late for me. :)

(FAITH) I have been taking my "thoughts" to the LORD. And, He is my Rock. With Him, I have everything I need and I don't need to be afraid. I think God has been telling that now is the time to believe. Up until now adoption has come easily for me. And, I have come to my "crisis of belief". I am standing at the Red Sea. I know in the deepest part of my spirit that this is the LORD's will and with Moses I will cross the sea. Like, Abraham and Sarah, I want to believe that what GOD says, He will do! Abraham not knowing where He was going set out in faith. I don't know how things are going to play out. I have not ever adopted before. I hope the baby will bond to us. I hope I will be a great mom to her. And, it is in the Lord's hands. I will trust in Him.